I KNOW WHEN YOU'RE GOING TO DIE
by Michael J. Bowler
Date of Publication: February 25th 2020
Publisher: Michael J. Bowler, Author
Cover Artist: Streetlight Graphics
Genre: YA Suspense/Thriller
BLURB
Leonardo Cantrell is a painfully shy sixteen-year-old who cannot look people in the eye. One night while he’s volunteering at a homeless shelter, an old man forces eye contact and gives Leo the power to see Death.
His best, and only, friend—J.C. Rivera—thinks this new power is cool until Leo accidentally looks into J.C.’s eyes and “sees” his murder, a murder that will occur in less than two weeks. Stunned and shaken, the two boys sift through clues in Leo’s “vision” in a desperate effort to find the killer and stop him before he can strike.
Aided by feisty new-girl-at-school, Laura, the boys uncover evidence suggesting the identity of the murderer. However, their plan to trap the would-be killer goes horribly awry and reveals a truth that could kill them all.
Excerpt:
The door to the
dorm is open and I step in. It looks like a huge barn with a worn hardwood
floor studded with row after row of folding cots. Since it’s dinnertime, all
the cots are empty except one.
An old man with
surprisingly alert eyes lies atop that cot staring at me. Most of the older
people who frequent the shelter have rheumy eyes, always moist and often
clouded, because they’ve struggled for so long on the street, and maybe because
they have alcohol or drug problems.
“Come here,
boy.” His voice is raspy and echoes faintly in the cavernous room.
At first, I
don’t recognize him. True, there are hundreds of homeless on the streets every
day, but I’ve been volunteering on Skid Row since I was fourteen and after
almost three years, like I said, I know most of them. I’m thinking
that if this guy is a regular, he’s passed under my radar.
And yet…
I have seen him,
I think. Not here at the shelter. Walking to my car…? Yes!
Several times over these past two or three weekends, I’ve noticed him. He’s caught my eye because, every time, he’s
stared at me so intently it made me
shiver. He’d be pretending to rummage through a dumpster, but his eyes would
follow me until I got into my car. I confess his gaze made me uncom- fortable,
but I let it go. I’ve learned to shrug off such creepy feelings because so many of the people I meet down here have
mental health issues.
I steel myself
and walk between the rows of empty cots—each with its neat bedroll awaiting an occupant—and stop
before the stranger with the scary eyes. Unlike most of the people,
his clothes aren’t especially dirty and he doesn’t smell like someone who’s
been on the streets for a long time. Wisps of gray hair stick out from his head
at haphazard angles and his face has so many wrinkles I don’t think I could
count them if I tried.
I don’t make eye
contact, but that’s because I never do. Not here, not anywhere. People tell me
I’m the definition of “shy” and they’re right.
“You asked to
see me, sir?” I say deferentially, my gaze on his gnarled hands.
He rolls over
onto his back. “I been watching you, boy. Seen you on the streets a lot.”
I freeze. So, I
didn’t imagine it! “Yeah?”
“Yeah.” The
voice sounds like sandpaper scraping along a fence. “Rich boy like you helping
out poor folk like me. What gives?”
I’ve been asked
this question by all my relatives, so I’m ready with my answer. “I think people
like me who are lucky to have a lot should help people who don’t. And I hope
I’m making the world better instead of worse. The kids I know just party and think about themselves
all the time. I don’t want to be like that.”
A crooked smile
cracks the wrinkled face. “You’re the one, all right.” “The one?”
With effort, he
unclasps his hands with their swollen knuckles and holds his right arm out
toward me. It shakes, like he barely has enough strength to keep it aloft.
“Take my hand, boy.”
Unlike my best
friend J.C., who never touches any of the people when he comes with me to the
shelters, I usually have no worries about contact. But I hesitate this time. I
mean, this guy has been watching me on the streets. But kindness makes me
swallow my anxiety and I clasp his hand. He squeezes gently.
“Look into my
eyes.”
Ordinarily, I’d
just glance into his eyes and then look away. But that com- manding tone
compels me. I raise my eyes and focus on his. They’re brown and alert and they shimmer beneath the
overhead lights. We lock gazes, and I stiffen. Something I can’t quite pin
down swells within me, like a surge of emotion. I suddenly feel… different.
All the tension
drains from his face in an instant. Relaxed, he releases my hand, pulling his
arm back with great deliberation. He rests both hands across his stomach and
gazes up at me with obvious gratitude.
“Thank you, boy.
Now I can die.”
I shudder.
“Wha-what do you mean?”
The man offers a
gentle smile. “I gave you a great gift, boy. Or maybe a curse. Had it so long,
I can’t be sure no more. But I couldn’t die till I passed it on.”
I stand frozen
in place, my heart thumping, my breathing on hold. A gift?
A curse? “Uh,
pass what on, sir?”
He chuckles and
it’s a wheezy sound, like he doesn’t have much air in his lungs. “Just you
calling an old bum like me “sir” proves you be the one.”
I feel different
inside and his words scare me because I know he’s done
something to me.
“I’m just a regular kid, sir. Nothing special.”
That chuckle
erupts again, wheezier this time. “Oh, you’re more than a regular kid. Like you
said, most kids only care about stupid crap like partying. You’ll use my gift well.” He lapses into a coughing
fit that scares me even more.
“Want me to get
some help?”
He waves away
the idea with one hand. After a few moments, the hacking ceases. “No need.
It’s my time.” He suddenly looks really
pasty and gray in the face. “When you
find someone worthy, boy, pass on the gift to them,” he whispers, his voice
very soft and almost inaudible. He closes his eyes and lies still. “Until then,
make wise choices.”
Then he stops
breathing. Literally, just stops. One second his chest is ris- ing and falling
and then the next, there’s nothing. I want to shake him back to life and ask a
thousand questions, but instead I run from the room to get help.
Author Info
Michael J. Bowler is an award-winning author who grew up in Northern California. He majored in English/Theatre at Santa Clara University, earned a master’s in film production from Loyola Marymount University, a teaching credential in English from LMU, and a master's in Special Education from Cal State University Dominguez Hills. Michael taught high school in Hawthorne, California, both in general education and to students with learning disabilities. When Michael is not writing, you can find him volunteering as a youth mentor with the Big Brothers Big Sisters program and raising his newly adopted son. He is a passionate advocate for the fair treatment of children and teens in California, and hopes his books can show young people they are not alone in their struggles.
The Book Junkie Reads . . . Interview with Michael J. Bowler . . .
How would you describe you
style of writing to someone that has never read your work?
I’ve been
told I have an unusual writing style because readers say they feel like they’re
watching a movie unfold in their minds while reading my work. My readers like
this style, but I’ve found some editors and publishers do not. Perhaps because
of my background in filmmaking, I tend to think of a book as though I’m
directing a movie and try to put in all the camera angles and necessary sensory
details. I’ve been told by editors that even if the POV is 1st
person, I should write things like “J.C. chases after me,” rather than how I
wrote this moment: “I start jogging down Main, but soon I’m running, ignoring
the dust I kick up from the sidewalk as I hurry in the direction Hank took. I
hear J.C. curse under his breath and then his footsteps as he follows.” In the
real world, if I’m running away, I can’t see J.C. following me, I’d only hear
him, so I feel my way brings more reality and immediacy to the moment. Many
editors disagree.
Do you feel that writing is
an ingrained process or just something that flows naturally for you?
Writing
flows pretty naturally for me. I cogitate on stories for awhile and even play
out exact scenes in my mind before writing, but once I begin, the first draft
flows rather quickly. It’s the revising that takes up the lion’s share of my
time, but that’s my favorite part.
Do you take your character
prep to heart? Do you nurture the growth of each character all the way through
to the page? Do you people watch to help with development? Or do you build upon
your character during story creation?
I start off with my characters following a certain arc that I
feel best serves the storyline because I always know how my stories will end
before I start writing. But more often than not, characters start to write
themselves and say or do things I never planned out in advance. Sometimes, I
try to resist these intuitive character choices, but more often than not, those
choices turn out to be correct. I think the nurturing of characters comes as
they continuously interact with each other and find their own voices along the
way.
Have you found yourself
bonding with any particular character(s)? If so which one(s)?
I tend to bond with many of my characters, especially Lance,
the MC in my five-book series The Lance Chronicles. In guiding a
character like Lance through so many adventures and life challenges over five
books, I couldn’t help but bond with him. I also feel close to Leo, the
MC/narrator of my latest book, I Know When You’re Going To Die, because
in some ways he’s like me as a teen and I can truly feel his struggles with
shyness and social anxiety.
Can you share your next
creative project(s)? If yes, can you give a few details?
I have completed two more novels for the teen/young adult
market, as well as one for middle grade readers. All have been edited multiple
times and continue to be polished. I hope they see the light of day in the near
future because I feel they are strong stories that will engage the right
readers.
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