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Esther kissed me once for free, when we were both just girls. We were sitting watching the Rangers play baseball—not the Olympics, because it was the summer of 1980 and Carter was choosing to hide in a boycott rather than fight the communists who were running it—and Gunnar went to the fridge to get a fresh bottle of beer.
“Daddy,” Esther called, “can we have some sandwiches?”
He grunted back, and we heard his breathing punctuated by the clatter of the silverware drawer and the rattle of the jam jar.
Esther swayed back and forth, making fun of how Gunnar had staggered as he walked to the kitchen.
“Usually I get his beers, or mom does, but you’re company.” She winked at me.
I wasn’t allowed at Esther’s house often, even though we should have been best friends all along. We were both 14, we lived across the street from each other, and we would go to high school together the next year, just like we’d always gone to school together. But her family wasn’t our kind of people.
On the day Esther kissed me, though, momma’d had a vision of her and Esther’s mom going shopping together.
When momma had a vision, you didn’t stand in the way, and so she had dropped me off and taken Esther’s mom in the big car to go shopping.
Gunnar came back with a paper plate of peanut butter and strawberry jam sandwiches for us, and a pair of beers for himself. He eased back down into his lounger with the creak of springs and scritch of leather on denim, and opened a beer. He let it dangle from his fingers, and it wasn’t long before he was snoring.
Esther crept up on him and eased the bottle from him.
She held it out, for me to drink. This was one of the reasons they weren’t our kind of people, and I shook my head no at her.
“I’ll scream,” she whispered, and held it out again. “It’s gross. He’s already drank off it.”
Esther pushed her finger into the neck of the bottle and wiped it, just a little pop of sound when her finger came out, then wiped the outside of the top. She made me take the bottle.
I drank some, of course I did. Not much, just a swallow, so she wouldn’t scream, and then I gave it back to her.
She finished the bottle, and then laid it down beneath Gunnar’s fingertips. There hadn’t been much left anyway, I told myself.
We sat on the floor in the Texas summer heat and leaned our backs against the new couch. The plastic on the seats got sticky and uncomfortable when the sun shone on it, but the unglazed terra cotta floor was cool, and her hand was warm when she put it in mine.
She was swaying again, and when she swayed my way, her head rested on my shoulder and stayed there.
“Esther,” I told her. She looked up.
“We’re best friends now.” She nodded.
Good. It was good to have a friend. Even if next year she didn’t join me in softball and running and volleyball and all the other sports I’d been denied in junior high because there were only intramurals, I’d still have a friend. Frank didn’t let me play with him anymore, because he was older and it wasn’t “cool” to have your little sister around, especially if she was better at baseball than you. He could get the bat on the ball sometimes, smash it high in the air with the powerful arms that he’d once used to hoist me on his wide shoulders, but he lacked control. Just about every hit was a foul or a pop fly. Even when he hit it well, he was never ready to run.
I’ve always been ready to run.
Esther didn’t care about baseball, even if she’d watch it on the tv with me. At school, I’d used to watch her when she double- dutched with the other girls, who called me boy like it was a curse word and stopped their ropes when I came around.
“I have a secret,” she said, without lifting her head. “I want to tell it to you.”
The Book Junkie Reads . . .Reckless Dreams Interview with . . . Chade Musick . . .
How would you describe you style of writing to someone that has never read your work?
My books are narrator driven, moreso than character driven or plot driven. Because of this, all of the narrators are a little unreliable, which reflects my own feelings about perception, memory and truth. I have epilepsy, and it affects my memory pretty strongly. Because of that, I am very aware that the way I experience the world is not necessarily going to match the way anyone else does. My narrators also reflect this. You can usually trust they’re telling you the truth as they see it, but that doesn’t mean you can trust it to be objective fact.
Do you feel that writing is an ingrained process or just something that flows naturally for you?
I have to consciously sit down to write. It doesn’t feel like anything flows naturally or easily. There are days that I can feel like I’m in a flow state, and days I have to drag every out. And an interesting thing about it is that when I read back over my books, I can’t tell from scene to scene which way I was feeling when I wrote it.
Do you take your character prep to heart? Do you nurture the growth of each character all the way through to the page? Do you people watch to help with development? Or do you build upon your character during story creation?
I take a mixed approach to this. I’ll decide on a few aspects of each character before I start writing, and then I’ll take note of any time that I say something new about the character. After I’ve finished the first draft, I go through and add details. I’ll sharpen some facets of a character and eliminate others until each character seems (I hope) real and unique.
Do you have a character that you have been working on for a long time that still isn’t quite ready, but fills you with excitement to work on the story?
I have an evil chalkboard in one of the books I’m working on. There’s some of the story that I’ve written, but it’s still not quite right. The chalkboard encourages a pyromaniac to set things on fire, but I’m not completely sure why, yet. It’ll get there. I’ve already finished another book in the same series, and those will be coming out in 2023 and 2024.
Can you share your next creative project(s)? If yes, can you give a few details?
I’m finishing up a novel now about a maybe-dragon. The narrator certainly thinks of themselves as a dragon, and the reader can decide whether the narrator is to be believed. This book is planned for publication in early 2022.Twitter: https://twitter.com/TheMusicks
Website: https://cinnabarmoth.com/chad-musick/
Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/20831411.Chad_Musick
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